Finally it's done!!

ATLAST! My Two Weddings are done!!!!!

But it doesn't mean everything will be better in one snap. Of course it won't! but i am just truly happy that the most stressful thing in my life is finally over. 

I had three weddings and that will be the last.  I will not advice people to follow me because it is too tiring and stressful. you will literally cry and shed so much tears due to frustration. 

But both weddings are magical, wonderful and fabulous! for the Philippine Wedding my dream walking down the aisle came true and Dwijin's Fireworks too! 

I would like to thank Jason and his team MY GREEN AFFAIRS for helping me with this wedding, for making our ideas and dreams into reality.

I would like also to thank OUR FAMILY who attended, my friends, my theater friends and my Parents Friends. though there's a lot of vacant chairs and empty table still my wedding goes well. Anyway, i think for those people who didn't attend our wedding it's actually there lost not ours. 

BUT i think FILIPINO's must know what does RSVP means. not only knowing what does this abbreviation means but also how this thing works! :)

For the Singapore Wedding, i would like to thank Four Season Hotel's Ms. Kaylynn the one who assisted us and also to my Mom in Law, as she is the one who coordinate to almost everything. Also i want to thank My Sis in Law for surprising us in our wedding. Dwi and I thought she's not really able to attend our wedding. We also want to thank my three bestfriends since childhood, Kristina, Ariane and Didi for also giving an effort to fly here :) to all our friends and to all the people who attended, Thank you so much. We hope that you guys enjoyed the night. 

For pictures, soon i'll be posting it here and in my facebook :)

Only married people will know. :)

Another night that i can't sleep due to a lot of thoughts been running inside my head. thoughts that i'm quite hesitant to blog about because i don't want to say something "mean" or "nasty" to other people, but i guess i need to do this not only for me or for them but actually to all the people in the whole world to understand what marriage all about. 

I originally think to title this Blog "DEAR EX-FRIENDS"but i changed my ideas as "sometimes" i just thought that they are only saying all those things about married life due to novel, movies or realities show that tackles marriage life, not by personal / self experience because they haven't get married or even not attached to someone. 

Anyway, everybody knows that marriage life is about two opposite people who decided to become one, but the deeper meaning of that; of what exactly marriage life means is "NOBODY KNOWS". you see different people have different point of view in life, maybe few things they can agree but not all of it. If two individuals decided to become one, nobody knows what kind of future they have. it will always depends on how they will deal things. 

there is no perfect couple, maybe only "rare" couple don't fight. but me and my husband as a normal being, we argue a lot and we love a lot. we hurt each other, we cried, we laugh it's just a crazy world that only married people will know,even though you are mad at your spouse you can't hide the fact that you love him/her.

you probably hear a thing or two when he/she needs someone to talk to because he/she's not happy or depressed about their other half. i think it's normal that they spoke to their closest friend JUST TO LET IT OUT WHAT'S INSIDE. It's okay, but i think the best advised that i hear from my friend is, "you should talk to your spouse" 

Nobody's perfect, a good example is our situation, most probably they think i am controlling. but deep inside of me i don't want to be controlling as me myself don't want to be controlled. For you it's controlling but for me it's disciplining and letting my husband know about prioritizing. because i felt that he got a problem in "prioritizing" in every aspect of his life because i know my husband is not perfect. Just like the other night, he told me he's going to meet his friend for dinner, i didn't told him "NO DON'T GO" instead i agree with it, hoping that he will come back not so late or perhaps before i reached home. He knows my schedule, I ONLY GOT ONE OFF DAY IN EVERY WEEK AND ONE WEEK IN EVERY MONTH THAT I CAN GO HOME EARLY. for those people who doesn't know my husband working in the morning and i am working at night. every time he's going to work i am sleeping and every time i go back from work he's already sleeping. "almost" everyday he's having dinner with this same people / friends. what i am asking is a time for me. i am not asking him to "DON'T SLEEP UNTIL 5 in the morning, WAIT FOR ME UNTIL I COME BACK". you see the difference. 

Well, anyway people can say a lot of things behind someone's back, because i do that. maybe in their mind i am a very bad wife a "treated me like princess" wife. but they can only say and say and say because they are not the one who's sleeping with my husband under in the same roof. i just hope that once you finally see your other half, hope that he/she won't hit your head against the concrete wall, that he/she wont kick you when he is happy or annoyed to you, that he/she won't leave you alone at home and chooses to be with his friends in the middle of your shivering due to a freaking high fever, hope that he/she's not lazy in helping you out in doing household chores, hope that he/she's not sharing your "ME and MY SPOUSE TIME" with your friends, etc etc etc. i might be sounds so complaining but actually i am not, i just don't have any idea on how i should let you know that "YOU ARE NOT EXPERT"

Have you heard about this saying "The FIRST YEAR OR TWO YEARS OF MARRIAGE LIFE IS THE ADJUSTMENT TIME" But i guess, even though you heard of it you won't understand it only those who are in 10 years or 11 years or whoever that survived on that period can understand it.

another saying, "EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER IN LIFE" now my question is, do you have any experience? Think about it. Even us, our experience in this marriage life is not yet enough. So who are you to lecture things, if you and yourself haven't experience? that's why there's always a FREE TESTER in every mall.

bottom line is, you are out of the group of two. just like what my bestfriend always tell me when i share my family problem. HE CAN ALWAYS LISTEN BUT HE CANNOT GIVE WORDS. a very well said from a married person. 

Haist. tons of things i want to say but since i felt that i will start to become mean i should better sleep.

one last saying, if you fight with an immature people, then how do you label yourself? :)

Goodnight!

Another Random Me after a month.

Oh hello BLOG its nice to know that you are still working and alive. to my surprise, there are still some random readers who happened to click this dead and probably, boring blog of mine. THANKS STRANGERS, LOVE YAH! *keep the faith alive*

So, what makes me to blog again? Hmmmmmmmmmmmm. I am bored (?) and there's a lot of things inside my mind (as always). I've been very busy since i started working, works seems to be okay now, maybe i'm getting used to it, with all the scoldings and accusations of "some" people, it's just that i don't know how long should i stay or should i stay for good? . Gosh, i miss my husband and my home and my LIFE!. I only have a normal conversation with my husband once a week and that is my off day. we hardly see each other due to time differences of our work.

Anyway, i just got my appraisal from my MANAGER. i am happy about the result it's literally gives me hope   to stay. i just hate the idea of attending all the training and being stuck with someone i don't really get along with. GAAAAAAAAD! good thing customers always praised and compliments my working skills. at least i know that i am not useless.

So much about work we changed the topic to another nonsense thought. THE FREAKING WEDDING IS ONLY 2 MONTHS TO GO! and i really feel that there's so much things to do. you know so little time so much things to do. FUCK! (Oh shit, i think my swearing habits came back) i just really wish all these weddings will ended soon. this really makes me stress for more than a year, i want a semi-peaceful fucking life that only thinks about the home loan, monthly bills and mcst and of course save money for my future BLIP.

Seriously, these wedding makes everybody so stressed. please wake me up when April Endssssss.

See i told ya, this is so boring blog.

Anyway, i saw this video of Ricky Lo interviewing Anne Hathaway. I really feel so embarrassed for him. AS IN. he really looks stupid while doing his interview, but anyway he must be very nervous but still he is not a newbie, he doesn't look like a professional. Anyway it's just that a piece of my comment after watching it.

Back to the wedding. (and i know this is so random) The good thing about this wedding, it became a mini reunion. And i've been thinking about Jeff, my twin. (he is one of my entourage.) and the thing that he told me back in 2009.

November 2009

I am so sad that my outlet will transfer me to another outlet as i am useless for them. i am so depressed and i got no one to talk to. good thing jeff is online and he gave me a words of encouragement. he even told me that, who knows that i'm going to meet the man who is destined to me.

Seriously, i've met him and he is actually Dwijin. I think jeff can see the future. HAHAHA. okay a bit of future or maybe he have a super power of make what he says to happen (does my sentence is right?, C'mon since when i bothered about it?) that's why i ask jeff to be part of my entourage as he is the first person who sees Dwijin coming into my life.

Okay, i'm sleepy and i need to sleep and make Dwijin force to sleep. he's been playing games since 10 pm and now its freaking 2:17 am. GOODNIGHT!!!


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PS: hope i will find the wedding shoes that is destined for me. :)