Heartbreaks

"I want to die!!!!!"

 

The most famous line after the severe break-up. It's normal, It's common. Some people will really commit suicide because they can't take the pain and some are just saying it because they felt that it's the end of the world.

 

It's actually true, it's painful, it's like how are you going to face the tomorrow with a brand new status? How are you going to face the reality that its over between you and your special someone? someone that you spend so much trials and happiness and joy and probably dream about the future, your future. It's painful.

 

I remembered my most painful break-up. He and I so called "engaged" we dream about our future, we are actually okay from the day he started courting me, until one day, I received a temporary break-up or "cool off" message. I was totally wondering why? what went wrong? why he suddenly changed? why out of nowhere I will received that kind of message, in the morning. Why why why? I still tried my best to win him back, I did succeed for a while but I actually felt worst I felt that the love is no longer there, there is no actually love anymore, there's only pity. until the temporary became permanent due to issues like trust, infidelity and harsh words that made me realize that there's no point of holding back. I cried so much, my crying is like a song, it keeps on a repeat mode. I called my bestfriend just to cry. I go to school unprepared for the final exam, floating in the air, like a zombie, this is actually the worst break-up I ever had. I really do love him to the point I wish I am pregnant so he don't have a choice but to stick with me.

 

But, not all break-up will be a nightmare, eventually this break-up that causes you a sleepless night and swollen eyes, you will really be thankful for it. thankful because you two broke up. the break-up gave you a new chance to meet someone new or a chance to love yourself, a chance to learn a lot of lessons that you can imply to your life, a chance of knowing what you missed out and knowing what you really want to do in your life. You see, there's always a rainbow after the rain. there's always good in goodbyes. Imagine, if the guy didn't break-up with me, I wont be here in Singapore, I won't get married to Dwijin, the most wonderful guy I met. My life will be totally different from what and where I am now. So, I will be forever thankful for the guy who badly broke my heart.

 

But not all my former relationship gave me something to remember or something to learn. Only few of them actually. My first boyfriend during High School taught me that looks comes with danger and trials. I was mesmerized by his action when he left his current girlfriend that time just to court me, to be with me. I was mesmerized by his looks as well but because of him, I was a victim of bullying, I was bullied almost everyday and to add salt to my wounds, he cheated on me. I should have known if he left someone for me,  he can do it again and again and again.

 

While another former helped me what I am actually looking for a guy. Actually, there's nothing wrong with this Half Jap guy. he's sweet and he persevere a lot by finding ways how he can get my contacts. Anyway, I am the one who broke up with him because I find him boring for me. you see, I am naturally talkative and he is the opposite of me, he's a one liner and I am out of things to say for the sake of salvaging the conversation, He can't make me laugh and so, i ended it up.

 

But one guy surely let me know what is karma. We both love each other, until I got tired. I didn't imagine that it will come to the point of getting tired of overwhelming love, well I guess I also felt suffocate with the relationship. I know breaking up with someone is not an easy thing to do. I created a excuse like I want to focus with my studies, which is quite true and since then I don't entertain his calls. until after few years, we met again, we became friends and we reconcile. I told to my self that this time, I will do better and I really did it's just that when he felt that i am into him, he treated me like a shit and eventually broke up with me. he asked me how i feel, because that's what actually he felt when i broke up with him. I cried but i accepted the reality, this is the price that i need to pay for. from then on, i welcomed Karma into my life.

 

we might not notice it from the first few days, weeks, months or even a year but one day while you are sipping your favourite coffee or tea, or as long you are not busy and you find yourself, quite successful, you will realized all of the good things of breaking up. you just really need to accept it slowly so you can move on slowly. Don't rush.

 

The 25 years old Blackheads.

 

I know it's sound disgusting. But I really enjoyed watching this video uploaded in youtube.com by J Hall uploaded last August 4 2013 and right now  there's already a 353,515 views. I wonder how many is my contribution.

 

Anyway, the video description is about their Aunty who had a clogged pore for 25 years. So the nieces did some action. they removed it with all their energy. The blackheads is so thick and about an inch. What really amazed me is the size of the pore/hole left after the blackheads finally removed.

 

 

Anyway, here's the video, I hope you enjoy it as much I did.

 

 

Isn't wonderful? imagine, while I am watching this, I watched this with full of emotions. I want to be the one who is holding the magic wand trying to remove the blackheads. After watching it, I feltthe success, the triumph! Well, actually I asked Dwijin weather he got some blackheads that I can squeeze but he said "Leave my blackheads alone!" HAHAHA. He knows that I have this kind of passion for removing a blackheads. I used to squeeze his when he is in the good mood. Now, he don't let me do it.

 

I think the last thing that I squeeze is from my little sister armpit. she got this small thing in her armpit that I know there's a hidden treasure within. So, I told her she need to take it out or else it will grow bigger and it may cause her having a cancer because it's a cancer cell, anyway I told a lot of bullshit to her so she will believe me and will let me squeeze it. When I told her it's not gonna hurts she believe me and yes! I did it. I squeeze it with my two fingers, and she scream of pain and she cried. HAHAHAHA. she hates me for doing it but she still hugged me. SISTERS LOVE!

 

Anyway, if you got something like this, let me know. I am willing to remove it from you for free. I really hope I have a friend who got this, even it's not 25 years old, evenit's 24, 23 or 22 or whatever. as long you got a big, thick and hard blackheads, i'll be delighted.

 

Okay, I think it's enough for a disgusting topic. Happy Eating everyone!

 

 

Video credit : J Hall from youtube.com

 

 

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My dear friend seems enjoyed it so much, he even gave me a link for more incredible things like this. so here's the link http://www.reddit.com/r/popping/?count=25&after=t3_1kuvc2 for those people who wants more! Thanks Arvin!

 

 

Random Friday

After the stressing week, I am now doing a general cleaning.

Well, last Tuesday, I told Roma, my new tenant that I am not going to clean the house so Dwijin will realize how difficult it is to leave in a messy surrounding and also how difficult it is that there's no more clothes to wear. And Roma laughed at me last night when she saw me ironing all the clothes.

I am actually serious about what I said but because Dwijin invited his Uni friends this coming Saturday, so I need to postpone my plan.

So now, I am sweating and hungry and found out that there's a lot of rubbish inside our house. LOL. Damn!

Actually, there's nothing important thing to say here. Well, I want to blog about all the foods that I am cooking but I got no time to compile all of them. give me some time.

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I finally submitted my homework at Art Appreciation. Thought I could take my exam on Monday, but the school admin says, Monday is a Holiday so they move it on Tuesday. I didn't know there's a holiday on Monday in Philippines.  Can somebody tell me what's the holiday?

 

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This past few days, i hate watching Filipino news, it's not that I don't care about those victims of the recent typhoon. it's just annoyed me so much if they will proudly says that they are staying near at the river that's why they are in a evacuation blah blah blah. then some more i saw someone holding a 7 days old baby and she's crying because she cannot stay in the hospital because the bill. Well, this is what i call irresponsible people. I am not saying that they don't have the rights to be a parents or to have a baby, but atleast think first before you do some intercourse. Think whether you can afford to support your baby. If not, then strive hard first before you do anything. That's really pisses me off.

 

 

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Okay, I'll be going back to my cleaning. That's all for now. 



30 days blog challenge

Well, after the stressful week for me, rushing my homework to meet my deadline, I suddenly felt bored. So, I look for a 30 days blog challenge (I know it's already outdated) to make my self busy. LOL. let see how committed I am this time.

 

so here's  the 30 days challenge that I find interesting, too bad I can't remember where I took this, but whoever you are, I will give credits to you :)

 

 

1. Weird things you do when you’re alone.

2. How have you changed in the past 2 years?

3. What kind of person attracts you.

4. What you wear to bed.

5. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex.

6. The person you like and why you like them.

7. Your opinion on cheating on people.

8. Something you’re currently worrying about.

9. Your last kiss.

10. Your views on drugs and alcohol.

11. Your currently relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

12. Things you want to say to an ex.

13. A date you would love to go on.

14. Something disgusting you do.

15. The best things to happen to you this week.

16. 3 things you are proud of about your personality.

17. Things that make you scared.

18. Disrespecting parents.

19. Something that never fails to make you feel better.

20. The last argument you had.

21. Something you can’t seem to get over.

22. 10 things about you people don’t really expect.

23. Something you always think “what if…” about.

24. Things you want to say to 5 different people.

25. 10 ways to win your heart.

26. Your religious beliefs.

27. Talk about your siblings.

28. The month you were happiest this year why.

29. A picture of yourself.

30. What changed this month and what you hope will happen next month.

The Baby and The Silly

Owkay! I have a new lappy and I named it SILLY.

 

It's an Acer V5. Stylo Milo Touchscreen!

 

I am so happy as my husband bought me. I think he pity me already because my old laptop was bought 2009 and my old laptop which I named Baby, is already in a die die situation. Baby cannot leave without any life support (charger). This life support must always plug in wherever I go or else Baby will die.

 

Baby also having a hard time to connect to wifi already. She cannot take it anymore, and she's quite stiff already as its very hard to press some of her keyboards. I think Baby has full of virus that made her slow.

 

I have a very good memories with Baby, I asked my mom to buy me a laptop before I take my Thesis, so it will be easier for me to do research. I used baby during researching for my thesis and also research for my favourite Oppa, Kim Hyun Joong and SS501. eventually I passed the Thesis and still taking care of Baby carefully.

 

But, I admit once I  become so unattached with baby, I brought Baby with me when I did my OJT here in Singapore, I let my friends to use baby for them to communicate with their families as they are having a hard time adjusting. There are times I cannot longer see Baby, and when Baby came back to me, after friends managed to buy their own I cannot longer recognize Baby. She's so different already and quite a lot of things is installed. Since then, Baby started to get sick.

 

But Baby have a good fight. She survived and still surviving until now. It's just that I think She need now more time to relax with Dwi's Lappy. They need to take a rest after all the great service they did to us.

 

Baby, I am very thankful for you. I wont forget how much my sister loves you, she love decorating you and put a lot of sticky sticker. Baby, You helped a lot of people not only me to survived the loneliness and boredom. Baby. I will always Love you.

 

Now, I am having Silly, You are so silly, I know you are new and you just barely know me that's why you are giving me a hard time using and understand new, but I know eventually we will be close just like how Baby and I. Silly, I promised to take care of you for 1 year then after that let see how. But I will try my best to take care of you as my Dear Husband bought it for me. you are the second expensive thing he bought for me. First is the wedding ring then next is you.

 

Silly, I know just like Baby you will help me with my studies, we will be together until I finished my second degree, just don't tempt me with the other apps that you have, we will be okay.

 

Silly and Baby. I love you :)

 

 

 

Andi.

Happy Birthday Clang!

Hey! Here's another super late post for the sake of updating my blog. :)
Anyway, I've been dying to post about this Clang's Birthday celebration, but I've been rushing to finish my homework to meet my deadline. (well, I am still rushing but I need to practice my fingers and get used to my new lappy, silly!)

So here we go,

August 7 is my dear friend, Clarissa a.k.a Clang birthday, She's one of my entourage for both of my weddings. she's also close to me and to Dwijin. anyway, Clang decided to work on the day of her birthday. I knew about it because I keep on tracking her schedule, so, Sarah (another friend of ours, and also one of my entourage) decided to surprise her on the day of her birthday. :)

One day before her birthday, sarah and I met up in my house to bake a oreo cheesecake.



Here's the actual finish product of our cheesecake.

 

 

But there's something happened, when I am going to transfer the cake to the box, I really had a hard time doing it. So, the cake actually had a line of hairline / break. Dwijin helped me out while teasing me  which made me to irritated and annoyed. So I need to do something to hide the lines. 



 

So, here's the oreo cheesecake, which I named oreomadness cheesecake. good thing I still got a few of oreos.

 



 So, the following day, Sarah and I decided to have our lunch in Clang's workplace, to surprise her. I carefully plan everything. I waited for Sarah at the Bar (since the restaurant is on the second floor and the Bar is on the first floor.) I had my iced coffee for free (I can't drink hot drinks)

When, Sarah came she's carrying a bouquet and that the reason why she late. Since it's not my first time at Clang's place. I knew that she always at the front door, which is really true.

Actually when we came up, we saw Clang talking to someone on the phone, head down so she really didn't see us. We are actually standing in front of her, carrying the cake and flower. She is so surprised and shocked. she almost cried. She is so touched by our action.

 

 

 

So, in return Clang treated us for lunch and she also organized a dinner buffet at concorde hotel on a sunday night. The place that she chosen serves a lobster and crab which is part of the buffet.

 

 

This time, Sarah didn't managed to join us, she's working on a sunday night!

Dwijin joined us and this time he don't feel out of place because Clang's friend, Juvi is a Singaporean so they got a long.

 

One of Clang's friend, Marlon who is working at Sentosa Butterfly Park. He bought a butterfly to release. this is the same thing I did on my 18th birthday. But too bad I am afraid of insects.

 

The Birthday Girl, is so happy :)

So, after the heavy buffet we went to Clarke Quay exactly where Sarah's working. We had a drink and shisha. we played Shagidi Shagidi Sha Po Po, which I lead. They all laughing at my crazy acts specially my husband.



 

 So, that's a wrap. That is all the happening on Clang's Birthday. Until next year! :)

A short trip to Philippines.

Last July 19, we went back to Philippines to attend my (our) Bestfriend's wedding, Raymond to his long time girlfriend, Katrina. 

It's a simple wedding that only few people are invited, those who are really special in their life.

Anyway, we arrived about 6ish in the morning and for the first time we took the airport taxi, which i think they have a reasonable fix price for the fare. (MORE SAFE, NEW FX, and they even RECORD THE PLATE NUMBER of each cab are the reason why i think it's reasonable price) when we reached home we just had a very quick breakfast, took a nap and woke up around lunch time to pick up Aisle. 

Well, we didn't go to MAKATI, which is part of our original plan because Aisle got bitten by her hamsters (she is taking care of Hamster!!!) as a very concern sister and brother, we asked mom to bring aisle to the hospital first then we will just all meet at the Hotel. The whole incident destroy our plans.

We checked in to the ORACLE HOTEL AND RESIDENCE along the Katipunan Avenue. We rent a van with a very grumpy driver to bring us there (and also to drop my mom and sister at the hospital first). Well, the room is quite spacious though for me it's a bit small for a 2 bedroom suite room with a price of XXXXX, I think it's not worth it. Though it's quite easy to find the location cos it's just infront of the Ateneo University. we stayed their for 2 nights and my sister enjoyed it so much. There's a restaurants and convenient stores nearby so i think it's not bad and also we didn't had a hard time getting a cab since it's along the highway. 

On our first night, our good friend Arvin came to visit us and of course bond! Dwijin likes him because he's helpful and nice, so he bought Baileys for Arvin. Anyway, we went to Eastwood to chill out. we went to this first bar who have this game called "beer pong" which i think very funny and disgusting game but then again, when you are drunk or with the spirit of alcohol in your mind you don't mind drinking that beer with some dirt from the pingpong ball, right? I mean when you are drunk you do alot of crazy stuff. Anyway, i like this bar because i think we had a very nice servings. I've been trying to remember the name of this place but i only remember the name of the very friendly server, Emman. 

After we finished our bucket we went to another bar, wherein we order a bottle of Bacardi Black. The service is bad and the promoters as well, as they are not so knowledgeable about the product that they are selling. Anyway, i taught Arvin this famous "Hokkien" phrase / style of drinking. Well i am not so sure with the spelling but it's about something that you need to straigh-up or else you have no BALLS. Well, Arvin and I did that and my gastric attacked me. It's quite embarrassing as i asked them to come back to the hotel as my gastric so painful. I think Dwijin didnt enjoyed much. Anyway when we came back to the hotel, I didn't join the two guys of finishing the whole bottle. they had their bonding time over the bottle of Bacardi.Arvin slept over and both of them threw up in the morning. 

Anyway, The following day is my bestfriend's wedding. When we are preparing, i wore my brand new long dress and realized it doesn't match with my wedge. (and my sister told me it's ugly) so i decided to fold up the long skirt and turned it into short dress. 

Well, Dwijin became the on the spot Bestman so he seated away from me. He even proud telling me he ate the holy host. 

After the wedding reception, we went back to the hotel as we are supposedly meeting The girls, but last minute they cancelled it so we just sleep and eat at the hotel as we are going to Quezon Province early morning.

SUNDAY. We pick up Tita Veron and Tito Omeng with my cousin and nephew before we head to our main destination. we stop over at Max's restaurant at San Pablo for Lunch as I am craving for Kare Kare while Dwijin is for Crispy Pata. after the heavy lunch wherein we had a lot of leftover we continue our journey to my grandmother's grave. (I promised my grandma that i am going to bring dwijin next time we are in Philippines). we cleaned her grave, lit a candle offer a flower and prayer and shared stories to her just like she's alive. Before we went back home, we stop over at our Relatives place just to get some green mangoes. The green mangoes from my Grandpa's backyard is heavenly sweet. My Grandpa is so sweet he took the mangoes for me. Then we went to my grandma's bestfriend who took care of me since i was a baby (Note, she's the one who bring me out of the hospital) to introduced Dwijin. we saw a Santol on the floors so we picked them and bring it home. and for our last stop over, we went to my another granpa's house to get Fresh Banana. He got a lot of banana tree on his backyard. Nanay and Tita are dying for it. 

It's a long journey and stressful for me as well as the kids bring home a "Salagubang" (Beatles) imagined to have a joyride with a salagubang? anyway, we bought Buko Pie at the Famous El Mare. I bought 2 for my family as aisle can finish one box. 

Well, we reached home about 9ish. We wanted to have a body massage to this newly open spa just across the basketball court but we couldn't because they are fully booked. 

Well, one thing i learned from this short getaway is very tiring! you know you got a lot of things you want to do but there's only a limited time. But good thing we are still here in Singapore which is very easy for us to travel back to Phil. i wonder how will be the situation if we moved to another country?

well, until next blog. follow me in instagram, andichat. (if you just want, i am not forcing you) i am not declining/rejecting anyone in my instagram unlike in my facebook :)

Bye!